panik!! the first "real" day...

ok, the details of my secret life as a tourist are being postponed, because i'm having something of a moral dilemma. (and, at the moment, a linguistic one as well--how the hell do you spell dilemma?!?!)

so. i haven't really figured out who i'm supposed to relate to more here, the students or the teachers. agewise, i might be closer to a lot of the students, but as far as stage in life or whatever, i'm clearly not in student mode and identify more with the teachers. but...since i'm not really a teacher, sometimes i'm in this awkward position where the students say things to or around me about the teachers, right? so then i'm sitting there, going, OMG, but Frau X is my new best friend!! or but Herr Z is so nice!! can this be true?! what if he IS a terrible teacher?? can we still be friends?!?!? oh no, what if the students find out i actually LIKE these people?!?! or worse, what if they're right, and so and so is the worst teacher on the planet??!? what am i supposed to say???! OR even worse...what if I'M absolutely horrible and everyone hates ME?!!?!
gasp. shock. horror!!!!

really, how am i supposed to sleep at night????